A New Direction

I woke up at 1:30 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.  My  mind was racing and my thoughts were all over the place.  I was told recently some things that I didn't want to hear.  The words broke my heart and saddened me. In the early morning hours I realized I finally knew what Jesus feels when we say similar things to him. I got this.  I can do this on my own. I don't need you. I can make my own decisions. I KNOW we do that to God.  We treat him like a Jeanie in a bottle.  We sit him on a shelf and tell Him we will call on him only when we need something, otherwise, we GOT THIS.   We want to forge our own path.  We want to do our own thing.  Make our own choices.  But, if we need something, that's when we call on Him, expecting him to be there ready to hand out what we need. Being a parent is hard.  You raise them up for years to have them one day leave and say they don't need you any more.  That...

If you know me well, you know that I journal almost every day.  I buy a blank journal every year.   The blank pages left are few.  Another year is winding down. Another year of being single. Another year of writing (or not writing) Another year of financial sameness and struggles A year of loss - 2 very special people in my life went to be with the Lord. A year of realizing who your friends truly are (or aren't) A year of realizing how very important family is. A year of helping others and thinking less of myself Its also a year of growing spiritually, of growing closer to people, of learning more about ME. It was a year of trusting God in my struggles and seeing Him remain faithful to me. It was a year of Him sustaining me. His grace is a sustaining grace.  His grace is enough.  Jesus is enough.   He gives me just enough grace to get through each moment.  It sustains me.  It meets me where I'm at. ...